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Have you ever felt like your entire world, everyone and everything you've ever known, might just be complete rubbish? Crumbling from the foundation and tearing at the seams. I don't think I've ever felt so helpless in my life. I guess we can just leave it at that.

We have babies!

Are they not the most beautiful thing?

I'm trying something new

So I decided to try something new, new blog, new hair, new people, all adding up to a great summer.

First of all, I didn't tell you..I cut my hair. Almost all of it. 14 inches to be exact. I donated it to locks of love. I like my short hair and sometimes I miss my long hair, but it'll always grow back. Nothing is permanent.
I am leaving this Friday for Michigan, my dad and I are going up to visit my grandparents and aunts and uncles. I'm really happy I'm getting the chance to go. I haven't seen them in a while. I'm going to spend the fourth of July up there and we're coming back the 6th. I'm also leaving on the 8th to go to St. Louis to see my best friend. I'm so stoked. I'll be back on the 14th only to leave for Cozumel on the 23rd. Also planning a second trip to Orlando in early August being that I went with Farrah a few weeks ago for her birthday and fathers day. Needless to say there is a lot going on in my life right now. Between traveling and trying to get a job I have my hands full, but it's okay, it'll all work out in the end.

My wonderful sister

Is absolutely brilliant!

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Já sei namorar
I already know how to love
Já sei beijar de língua
I already know how to kiss with tongue
Agora, só me resta sonhar
So now all that’s left is to dream
Já sei onde ir
I already know where to go
Já sei onde ficar
I already know where to stay
Agora, só me falta sair
So now all that’s left is to live
Não tenho paciência pra televisão
I don’t have patience for the television
Eu não sou audiência para a solidão
I’m not the audience for solitude
Eu sou de ninguém
I belong to no one
Eu sou de todo mundo
I belong to everyone
E todo mundo me quer bem
And everyone loves me well
Eu sou de ninguém
I belong to no one
Eu sou de todo mundo
I belong to everyone
E todo mundo é meu também
And everyone belongs to me as well
Já sei namorar
I already know how to love
Já sei chutar a bola
I already know how to shoot the ball
Agora, só me falta ganhar
So now all that remains is to win
Não tenho juizo
I don’t have judgment or reason
Se você quer a vida em jogo
If you want life as a game
Eu quero é ser feliz
I want to be happy
Tô te querendo como ninguém
I love you like no one else
Tô te querendo como Deus quiser
I love you like God would
Tô te querendo como eu te quero
I love you like I love you
Tô te querendo como se quer
I love you like you love to

Lovelovelove

Blind Expectations

An assumption of fortune
The reliance
on something greater,
something that should be greater.

A character to build on
Letting go of devotion,
and not allowing them
to slip through the cracks.

A paramour attaining affection
A familiar face gone acquaintance
that was before this,
completely consecrated to another.

An eternity to exist
The false perfections
and unfounded perceptions,
gone astray and relinquished.

I want this.

Surrounded by excitement.

You again

You are my rock. When I feel like I'm loosing you I feel like I'm loosing myself. You are strong and you listen. You are my rock. I love you. I couldn't tell you this, but it's true. No matter how upset I get you're still there and I know I'll always have that. You mean everything to me. I really wish you knew that.

You

Recently you hurt me and you don't know. You're the one that can't remember, but I can. You told me you were unhappy and I'm sure if you knew you were saying it you wouldn't have said it. You said you didn't like the thing I love the most. It's everything but artificial trash being shoved down my throat. I love it and when you said you were unhappy with it, well I thought it was too damn bad. You don't realize how happy it makes me and it's terrible because I know my happiness has been in your best interest for a while. I'm not saying it in vein but it's true. What makes you happy makes me happy, and I would never say anything to take that away from you. I guess I realized who I'm really dealing with and it's nothing like I thought. It's a damn shame because I really enjoyed your presence, it made me think a little longer and feel a little better but now, it's just a damn shame.