I have been thinking.

I use the computer a lot, and I've decided I'm going to write and post pictures. Not much more.
I use the computer way to often. If it weren't for Poroma I wouldn't really use Facebook. I think It's getting kind of old. Anyway, I'm going to get off, read a book, eat some food and go to bed. Sound like a plan?

Yes.

So

I had a good weekend, a billion things happened. Someone told me something, and I would never say who, but what they told me was surprising. I am still in shock. I went to see a movie, it was good, the last 20 minutes were horrible though. I went on a bike ride, it was a beautiful day. I walked around crossroads for a while. I took a hundred pictures with Bekah. I talked to my mom for the first time in a long time. I gave my dog a bath, only so he could go run in the mud an hour later. I wrote in my journal for the first time in a long time as well. There is more, but I would rather not share.

Oh! and I am getting sick, exciting eh?

Love/Hate

Love;

-books
-green tea frappuccino
-painting
-sketching
-tank tops
-rings
-boys in fitted jeans
-the smell of laundry detergent
-warm sheets
-itunes playlist
-quiet people
-internet cafe's
-French
-Spanish
-cable knit sweaters
-shoes
-converse
-keds
-classic vans
-BCBG Heels
-organic food
-magazines
-Wikipedia
-.05 lead mechanical pencils
-running
-sauna
-hot tub
-the beach with no other people around
-camping
-boating
-tubing
-wake boarding
-knee boarding
-white water rafting
-water skiing
-sailing
-snorkeling
-looking at the stars
-hands
-love
-photography
-modeling
-sincere apologies
-when people laugh at what I say
-when people decide not to judge me
-old people
-my mini laptop
-sims
-real designer handbags
-cheap sunglasses
-gold jewelry
-big windows
-the couches at Barnes and Noble
-driving and not knowing where your headed
-well fitted jeans
-my old writing desk
-old Polaroids
-riding the teacups at the fair
-roller coasters
-theme parks
-wooden ladders
-old rusty chairs
-almost anything vintage
-67' white mustang rag top
-sharpies
-plain v-neck tee shirts
-long necklaces
-hot showers
-not having to wear makeup
-consignment shopping
-New York City
-Paris
-London
-Mexico
-Australia
-China
-Things made in the U.S.A.
-walking with confidence
-technology
-clean
-old china tea sets
-my journal
-candles
-sunflowers
-ivy
-carnations
-orchids
-tulips
-land lines
-seeing someone you haven't seen in a while
-the internet
-Andy Warhol
-Annie Leibovitz
-Rob Dobi tee shirts
-Soft skin
-cold hands on warm skin
-hair that smells good
-naturally curly hair
-cuddling
-shoe boxes
-old pictures
-chalk boards
-white boards
-cork boards
-mirrors
-old scary movies
-watching movies while under the covers
-long car rides with friends
-getting lost
-that feeling when your heart seems to skip a beat
-deep breaths
-when boys talk and their voices crack
-smiling
-mint gum
-sleeping in
-skinny boys
-models
-people with a strong jawline
-big headphones
-lists
-the color yellow
-the world
-astronomy
-thinking inside the box
-thinking in general
-the feeling of being completely free
-flying
-traveling
-packing for a trip
-my full name
-friends
-family
-quotes from not-so-famous people
-sketchbooks
-school supplies
-tin foil
-big pencils
-art, in every form
-home-made greeting cards
-clip boards
-hands with dried paint on them
-modest people
-swimming with clothes on
-water
-walking on the curb
-freshly cut grass





Hate;
-cell phones
-when people text from across the room
-myspace
-how being alone is not socially acceptable
-children my age
-when people don't know what their talking about
-awkwardness
-most mainstream music
-bratty kids
-forgetting something
-getting bad grades
-heavy book bags
-when people call soda, pop
-when people lie
-when people judge people
-fake 'name brand' things
-hate
-some country music
-cheaters
-posers
-waking up when I don't feel like it
-Being late
-body builders
-unpacking
-b.o.
-generic, hallmark greeting cards
-when people pretend that their glad to see you
-when people want to 'have a talk'
-unexpressed emotions
-people who think they are better than other people
-ill dressed people
-arrogant people
-when you want someone to leave you alone and they won't







I am not done.

Strange girl, unusual world.

I went on a walk while it was sprinkling a few days back. It was nice to be outside. I listened to my music, and matched the pace of my steps to the beats of my heart. I can always hear my heart, no matter what. I didn't want anyone to see me, so I sat down. It was pleasant. When I am overwhelmed all I want to do is cry. I let it out and that's when someone happened to walk by. I assured them I was okay by pretending to be on the phone, and when they were gone I went right back to crying. I hate crying in front of people. I feel pathetic. When I was done I went back inside, cleaned up my face, and got a glass of water.

Refreshed.

It was all I needed.

Black eye.

I have always wondered what it would be like to be punched in the face. I guess it would hurt, but I'm not sure. I've asked a few people what it feels like and most say it "hurts real bad". Well, no duh.
I was also thinking, if it feels anything like the ache I felt today then maybe I don't want to know. Today was swell up until reality hit, after Barnes and Noble and the mall,I came home. Back to actuality, how uncomfortable.

I can't describe it other than 'hurts real bad'

Ten people, ten truths.

I wish I could write everything on here. I wish I could name names, but I can't so here, I'm writing something for the ten people I feel the strongest feelings for, but I'm not going to say who is who. You can try and guess, but your probably going to be wrong. I think a lot about people, you would be surprised as to what I think about you. These have no specific order.

1. Your the only one I can say I love you too, and I don't think you know that I really do.
2. You think I like you, and the thing is I can't stand to be around you.
3. You would be really good at guessing these. That's because I tell you almost everything.
4. I still like you, and I'm pretty sure you don't like me. I guess I have to live with that.
5. I used to trust you, now, I don't know if I can.
6. You always make me feel better, no matter what.
7. I told you a secret and you haven't told anyone, that I know of. Thank you.
8. You secretly don't like me, but I guess it's not much of a secret anymore.
9. Sometimes I wish you would listen better, but that's only because I really trust you.
10. I trust you, and that's hard for me to do.

That connection.

Are you taken/single?
Singlee

How's life going right now?
It's aright.
It could be better.

What are you doing this weekend?
Hanging out with Bekah and Poroma.

What are your hobbies?
Going outside.
Hanging out.
Talking.
Shopping.
Running.
Eating.
The usual.

Do you have a lot of self confidence?
Not particularly, but I don't think I'm completely lost.

What are your fears?
Change.

What do you want in life right now?
Someone to talk to, someone to trust.
I think I might have them, but I still have to be sure.

Do you like anyone right now?
Not really.

Ever had your heartbroken?
Yes, but it wasn't the cliche 'boy breaks up with girl' kind of heartbreak.
I can't really explain it.

Miss anyone right now?
I always miss someone.
But Poroma is coming over in a few hours(:

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
Poroma

Last person to text you?
Poroma

Last person you saw?
My mother

What was the last thing you said to someone?
"I promise"

Who do you trust the most in your life?
Right now:
Poroma Zaman.
Mother.
Father.
Bekah.

Who do you love most?
Family.
Poroma.
Bekah.

Who has hurt you the most?
The ones I love the most, because their the only ones that can hurt me the most.

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
Yes.

Are you happy?
I'm not happy, but I'm also not upset.

How many good friends do you have?
3 good friends.
2 best friends.
and one I trust no matter what.

Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?
It reminds me of them, but it's not that I can't listen to them.

Ever been told someone loved you?
I have, but I don't think they meant it.

Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
I have.

Not meant it?
Yes, and I regret it.

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
Hmmm, I guess.

What is your idea of true love?
Someone who I can trust, who I can be myself around, and someone who would never intentionally hurt me.

When they slip, do you think you can let go the small stuff?
The small stuff, yes.
I can always forgive but there are things I'll never forget.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not at the moment.
I still don't know if I believe in it or not.

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
Honestly, I don't know.
I do know, that you have to know the person first, there has to be that connection.

Jealousy: Atrocious

Main Entry: jealous
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: Fearful of the loss of position or affection.
Synonyms: clutching, possessive



I hate it more than anything in the world.

Move on.

Sometimes I feel like I have no one. Nothing whatsoever. I'm generally happy, but I can be sad sometimes. Who can't? The thing is, I am the one who makes me happy. I am the one who makes me sad. I control it, but the mind is a powerful thing. I've decided, I choose my own happiness. I would love to say that I want to be happy all the time, but I can't. I can't keep lying to myself.

I'll feel whatever I want.
Whenever I want.
You either like it or you don't, and if you so happen not to.
Then deal or move on.

I was sitting.

I was sitting on the bus, and these are the things that came to mind. This is a short list of the things I go on about inside my head.

-Sometimes god does good things to bad people and bad things to good people, and though we cannot explain it we learn to appreciate the bad things.

-Been forsaken in a world of disarray, then
a brief glimpse of you
and bliss.

-The simple humming vibration of a bus as it anticipates the flash of a brilliant green light.

-When you have to tip the tea cup higher to get to the bottom, knowing the warm feeling will soon be gone.

Push

There is this strange thing I do, and I can't help it.

I push people away when I need them the most. When I need someone to listen, I want everyone gone. It is incredibly selfish and I am not sure why I do it, but I do. The people that matter most to me are those who have held on. They care when I am hurt, when I am sick, and they know that I am always going to be there no matter what. The thing is, sometimes people help me even if they don't think they are. I listen, not well, but when I do, I really listen. I want you to know that I am listening.

"I wish you could hear me,
Listen to what I have to say
but I am afraid,
of being pushed away."
Andrea Metivier

I feel like

If I met me, I wouldn't like me.

Last one..for now.

50 questions to pass the time

1. Are you wearing a hat?
Not at the moment.

2. Bottled water: yes or no?
Yes.

3. Do you have a crush on someone right now?
I don't think so.

4. What kind of laptop do you have?
Lenovo Thinkpad.
x61s

5. Do you prefer writing in pen or pencil?
Pencil. 0.5 lead.

6. Who was the last text message in your phone from?
I don't feel like checking.

7. What’s your favorite season?
Fall, or spring.

8. Does your best friend have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
No

9. Do you like them?
Duh.

10. Favorite radio station?
26 on XM.

11. Type your name into Google. What’s the first link that pops up?
http://www.andreaelectronics.com/

12. What’s your favorite song at the moment?
Probably
Float on-Modest mouse.
It'll be something different in two days though.

13. Coke or Pepsi?
Dr. Pepper

14. Favorite subject in school?
Art 1 with Sands.

15. Last concert?
A while ago

16. Next concert?
Franz Ferdinand?
I hope.

17. Last magazine you bought?
Teen Vogue. It came in the mail two days ago.

18. Last book you read?
The last book in the universe-Rodman Philbrick

19. Do you prefer cats or dogs?
Dogs. Deffinetly.

20. Is there someone you want to punch right now?
Hm, I like to think violence is not the answer.

21. Favorite sports team?
I'll say the Carolina Hurricanes.
Hockey is the only sport I can stand watching.

22. State you most want to visit?
Alaska, or Hawaii.

23. Are you a MySpace addict?
No. Facebook, Blogger, and Lookbook.

24. When do you shower?
At night.

25. What’s your dream job?
Fashion Photographer.

26. What kind of car do you drive?
Currently, I don't have one.
Soon though!

27. What word in the dictionary best describes you?
That's a tough one. You tell me.

28. What’s your blog address?
narrationofagirl.blogspot.com

29. Worst TV show at the moment?
That MTV/VH1 shit.
I liked it so much better when it was real.

30. Are you a better talker or better listener?
Talker.
I have been working on listening.

31. Do you care about who wins the election?
OBAMA!
Already won.

32. Who was the most popular kid in your 7th grade class?
Ben Rain? Hollan Steen?

33. Are you afraid of ghosts?
No

34. Is there something lacking in your life right now?
Someone who will listen.

35. What do you miss most about childhood?
The innocence.

36. How many times did it take you to pass your drivers test?
One.

37. How many kids do you want?
Two, or three.

38. Are you a good liar?
No, but I am a good actress, you just don't know it.

39. Can you cook?
Macaroni. Cereal. Brownies. Cookies. Pasta. Sandwiches. Salad.
The easy stuff.

40. Are you a cheapskate?
I like to think I'm not.

41. What would you do with a million dollars?
Buy clothes. Buy a car. Buy a camera. Give half to my parents and sister.
Donate the rest.

42. Have you been to Disney World?
Yes! 7th grade field trip! I miss it!

43. How much time do you spend online a week?
A lot of time, but I like to think It is worth it.

44. Last time you went bowling?
A year ago?
Yeah, when I went with my volleyball team in 8th grade.
45. Hot or cold weather?

46. How many pairs of shoes do you have?
A lot.

47. Are you a shop-a-holic?
I like to shop. I am a girl. What can I say?

48. Where were you yesterday morning at 10:30?
Getting out of Math with Ms. Hair.

49. Are you afraid of the dentist?
No

50. Were you bored or entertained by this survey?
EH, It was okay. It's something to do.

A way to get to know me better.

1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
I guess.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
I still don't know.

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
Bekah, I think.
Or Riley.

5) Do you regret it?
Not at all.

6) Have you ever been depressed?
Yes, actually.

7) Are you a boy or girl?
Girl

9) What is your relationship status?
Singleee

10) How do you want to die?
Quickly

11) What did you last eat?
Brown sugar cinnamon pop tart.

12) Played any sports?
I have, but not currently.

13) Do you bite your nails ?
No, I got over that a while ago.

14) When was your last physical fight?
A long time ago.

15) Do you have an attitude?
I can.

16) Do you like someone?
I have my eyes open.

17) What is your real name?
Andrea Paulina Metivier

18) Do you have any special talents?
Hmmmm..
I can put my feet behind my head(:

19) Are you gonna get high later ?
Ew, no.

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
I don't use the word hate, but I do strongly dislike someone.

21) Do you miss someone?
A lot of people.

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Twirl, then cut.

23) Do you tan a lot?
Not really. I hate that SUPER tan.
I like pale.

24) Have any pets?
Fish and a dog.

25) How exactly are you feeling?
Optimistic.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Yes

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
No

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
Probably not.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
Nope

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Yes

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
Only a few things.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
Hanging out with Deanna and Bekah.
Were having a picnic.

33) Do you want to have kids?
Someday. I think..

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
No

35) Do you type fast?
Sometimes

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
Just ears

37) Want any more?
Maybe, I don't know.

38) Can you spell well?
Im okay at it.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
You already asked that.

40) What are you craving right now?
Apple.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
Yes

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
My dog, on the way to the vets office!

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
I hope not, but I think I have.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
To my knowledge, no.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I hope not.

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Maybe?

50) What should you be doing ?
Eating

51) What’s irritating you right now?
That thing that happened.

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
No, I don't believe it can.

53) Does somebody love you?
I like to think so, but sometimes I can't help but think that no one does.

54) What is your favorite colour ?
Yella

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes, and then a cop pulled us over:D

57) Do you have trust issues?
Yes

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
I guess.

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
I think so..but I still can't tell what he's thinking.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Deanna

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
No

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
No, that was when I was younger.
This year has been a roller coaster.

67) What was your child hood nickname?
Andrea?

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Actually, I think so.

69) Do you like to eat potatoes?
When I am in the mood.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
I'm still pondering that one.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Went on the computer.

73) What is bothering you?
You asked that one too.

74) Have you ever been out of your state?
Yes

75) Do you play the Wii?
At Deanna's house.

76) Are you listening to music right now?
Yes, I am.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
I hate it.

78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
December 3rd.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
No, I find it comforting.

80) Is cheating ever okay?
No

81) Are you mean?
I can be.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
If I try to.

84) Do you believe in true love?
At times, no, but I still think it is out there.

88) Do you like the outside?
Yes, very much.

89) Are you currently bored?
No

90) Do you wanna get married?
Maybe, I'm still not sure.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Sometimes, but not all the time.

92) Are you hungry?
Yes

93) Have you ever been on a plane?
Lots of times.

94) What makes you happy?
The feeling of freedom.
Poroma.
Bekah.
Riley.
Clean sheets.
Flowers.
Magazines.
Photography.
I could go on..

95) Would you change your name?
If I wanted to.

96) Ever been to Alaska?
No, but someday I will.

97)Have you ever been in love with someone who was way to young for you?
No, I don't like people who are younger.

98) Do you watch the news?
Yes

99) What’s your zodiac sign?
Aquarius.

100) Do you like Subway?
Yes

101)Who is the last person u had a serious crush on?
I can't tell.

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
I am pretty sure he does. He told me.

103) Do you talk to your friends?
I ignore them, my friends are stupid..
Seriously?

104)Do you like sushi?
After last night, no, but in general, yes.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Yes

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
Yes, plenty.

107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
John

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
I don't think I'll ever date a smoker.

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Deanna

110) What are your favorite lyrics to a song right now?
"Illuminate the No on our vacancy sign."

111) Can you count to one million?
I can, but I wont.

I like these.

Your ex calls​ you and asks to hango​ut what do you say?
Um, sure?
But he wouldn't do that.

Does the last perso​n you kisse​d care for you?
I guess.

What does it mean when you bite your lip?
It could mean a bunch of things.

What time did you go to sleep​ last night​ ?
3am

Have you recen​tly had plans​ with someo​ne and they cance​lled?​
No

Does it snow where​ you live?​
Occasionally

What does your phone​ do when you get a new messa​ge?​
Vibrate

Do you sleep​ with one leg out from under​ the cover​s?​
Sometimes, not usually.

What were you doing​ 30 minut​es ago?
Taking a shower

Who was the last perso​n to tell you they love you?
Deanna? I'm not sure.

Ever kisse​d someo​ne over 30?
My mommy and daddy when i was little

Have you ever worke​d in a food place​?​
No

What'​s on your sched​ule for tomor​row?​
School. Hanging out with people.

What was the last song you heard​?
perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

What was the last thing​ you ate?
Sushi

Are you still​ besti​es with the same peopl​e you were besti​es with a year ago?
Mmm, a few of them, not all.

If you could​ go back in time and chang​e thing​s,​ would​ you?
Actually, yes.

Do you want to get marri​ed?​
Maybe. If I find the right person.

Is anyth​ing bothe​ring you right​ now?
Only that I haven't finished my homework yet.

Have you ever kisse​d someo​ne whose​ name start​ed with an R?
Yes

Who was the last perso​n you talke​d to on the phone​?
Bekah? Poroma?
One of the two.

Whose​ bed did you sleep​ in last night​?
I slept on the floor in Deannas room.

Ever kisse​d anyon​e eight​een or older​?
No

Do you like to cuddl​e?​
When I'm in the mood.

Have you spoke​n to your mothe​r today​?
Yes

What color​ are your eyes?​
Brown, but when I cry their green.

Would​ you rathe​r it be sunny​ or rainy​?
It's been nice outside.
The sun is good.

How many cell phone​s have you had in your life?​
I don't feel like counting.
It's been a lot.

In the run of a week,​ how many times​ do you strai​ghten​ your hair?​
Once, maybe twice.

Are you waiti​ng for anyon​e'​s call right​ now?
I'm not waiting, but it would be nice.

Sometimes

I want to cry, just cry, that's all.

And sometimes..






It feels good.

A certin someone.

Today has been pretty shitty, I am not going to lie.

There is one thing that has made it worth while though.
Even though I got a simple text message, and a little letter in my Facebook inbox, it felt better than anything.

I would say that I am not going to name names, but Graham Hardy and Poroma Zaman, you both mean the world to me.


Thank you for listening.

Questions, Questions.

So from now on, your going to be asked unique questions, you ready?
Unique? Okay?

Can you listen to music while reading a book?
Yes, but it depends what book.


Do you wish you could ever hug yourself to see if your a good hugger?
Hah, no. I would have never thought about it.

Do you even like hugging?
Very much.

What's something other than a fruit that you love in milkshakes?
I can't drink milkshakes.

Do you wish summer could come just about now?
Actually, it's snowing outside right now, good snow. So maybe in a day or two.

Do you love Family Guy? Isn't it the best show ever?
No, no it's not.

Do you ever look ahead of the calender to see what school days you have off?
Always.


Are Monday mornings the hardest mornings to wake up to?
Mondays and Fridays.

Do you have a cat that stares and meows at you often?
No, but I do hate the neighbors cat. Oh! and cats in general.

Can you really ever relate to song lyrics?
Sometimes, I guess.

Are the teenage years the hardest to go through?
I wouldn't know. The only other thing I can compare them to is eating dirt and learning my times tables, which don't compare that much.

Have you ever stayed home from school just because you were WAY too tired?
I slept in once, on accident, and I came to school during first lunch. Other than that, never.

Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous?
Probably, but I regret it now.

What's something you're excited about right now?
The snow.
No school.
The fact that I've been up for 3 hours and I'm still in bed.

Have you ever been in a long distance relationship?
Sort of? It wasn't official.

Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
It is a yellow V-neck.

What's currently bothering you right now?
Hm, Not that much, actually.

How many people have you kissed this past week?
One? Don't ask.

Do you get distracted easily?
I can, but not usually.

How many kids do you want to have?
Either 2 or 3.
Or none.
At least one has to be adopted.

How late did you stay up last night?
I think I went to bed at 12, but I thought we had school.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
Chyeah.
It's all white!

How about now?
I'm alright.


Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
Mmm, no. I like Luna bars, I eat like five hundred a day.


Are you currently taking a science class in school?
No, that was last semester, I miss it though .


What are you thinking about right now?
The shitty video I posted on here.
Alex Griffith.
Carson Miller.
Jordan Corbley.
Connor Chase.
Kyle Gentry.
Poroma Zaman.
Deanna Metivier.
Bekah Alfonso.

Do you like flying or driving?
Flying!

Are you mad about anything?
No, I get over things really quickly.

Who was the last person you talked to on MSN?
I have AIM..and I never use it anymore. Oh! but I think the last conversation I had on it was almost a year ago with Kyle. It's a long story. A very long story.

If you could change your eye color would you?
Green or Hazel or a bright copper.
Like a vampire.

What are you listening to at the moment?
Hell Yes-Beck

What are you wearing on your feet
Nothing.

Do you fall for people easily?
Not anymore.


Do long distance relationships work?
Not for me.


Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
I wouldn't want to, but it wouldn't kill me.

Do you straighten your hair?
Every now and then.

Do you often wish there was something you could change?
I want to change the world.

In the past 24 hours have you hung out with a guy(s)?
Yes, actually.

Burger King or Wendy's?
Wendy's.

Latest you stayed up in the past week?
Four?

Where are you right now?
My bed. Still.

Boy or a girl to text you last?
Boy.

Who was it?
Alex?


Name something you are doing tonight?
Drinking hot chocolate.

Where will you be two hours from now?
Still in my bed?
Out in the snow?

Who was the last person of the opposite sex to text you?
Alex.

Can you make yourself sneeze?
No, I hate sneezing, but I do it a lot.

What is your current mood?
Comfortable.

What are you doing tomorrow?
School. Hanging with people.

Who was the last person to sit in your bed besides yourself?
Bekah and Deanna.

Do you think you would make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
I suck at relationships.

Where were you at 9am this morning?
In my bed.

Whose bedroom were you in last?
Mine.

Why do you feel the way you feel?
Because I've been in my bed all day.

What does your last text message in your inbox say? From Who?
'I don't suppose you wanna share what the means'
-Alex Griffith


What are you listening to right now?
Go it alone-Beck

How has the past week been?
Overpowering.

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
All the time.

Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.

Are you too forgiving?
I can be.

Where are your parents right now?
Moms at work, Dad is working downstairs.

Who do you miss?
Eight one.
Mexico.
Blue Ridge Leaders School.

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Retainer.

What are you stressed out about?
Nothing really. I'm content at the moment.

How many windows are open on your computer?
One, with three tabs.

In the past week have you gotten sick?
I've had a bad cough. Nothing special.

In the past week, have you gotten a hair cut?
No, but I need one.

Who was your last call from?
Probably Bekah.

When was the last time you drove?
Last day of drivers ed.
I can get my permit, I'm just lazy.

What do you do with most of your time?
I go to Deanna's house.

On a scale of 1-10, how good is life?
Eight.

Are you straight?
Totally.


Do you think you'll be a good Mother/Father?
I hope so.

I don't know if I even want kids.

Do you like the person you are becoming?
At times, yes.
At times, No.
At times, I have no idea who I am becoming.
At times, I don't know who I want to become.

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
Yes, but they were wrong.
Very wrong.

Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be?
I can't tell you that, but I know the answer.

Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
Moms.
I wish I had my dads.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Yes, they lied.

What did you do today?
Wake up. Text. Pull open my computer.

Do you think too much or too little?
Too much. Most of the time.

Where's the shirt from that you're wearing?
Hollister. It's from Deanna though.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night.

Have you ridden in someone else's car today?
No, I haven't gotten out of bed yet.

Are you a cuddler?
Yes. Sometimes.

Who did you last go out to eat with?
My dad.

Any summer plans for 2009?
EUROPE!
Poroma is coming!
I am SO excited.

The last song you heard?
Nausea-Beck


How's your life lately?
Can't complain.

Do you know anyone that is currently locked up?
Actually, yes.
R.I.P. Matthew Silliman.

When is the last time you took a nap?
I just woke up.


Tears are falling down your face, what's the reason?
Someone did something.

When someone calls you in the middle of the night, do you remember the conversation?
I'm usually awake when they call, so yes.

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
It can be. Sometimes it's the hardest thing in the world.

What are you doing tomorrow?
School, friends.


When did you last receive some money?
I got $200 from my grandma for Paris, Venice and Rome.

Meet anyone new this year?
Plenty of people.

How many hours did you sleep for last night?
I don't know.
I'm to lazy to do the math.

Name someone you know whose name begins with a C?
Connor

Have you recently been pressured to do something?
Yes. I said rejected.

What did you last eat?
Cookie, last night.

Do you miss anything or anyone?
Plently of people.

Do you ever wish your close friends would just die?
Um, no.

For Deanna

I already showed you the video, so I just deleted it.

:D

Michelle Metivier

Today is your birthday.
I love you, Have fun.

-Monkey

A lot to take in.

Today was a lot of fun, I woke up on the couch with Bekah and Deanna, they slept over after the movies. We went to see Fired Up, not a particularly good movie, but no big deal. I saw Graham there, what a kid. When we came home we ate for a while and talked, also we danced and took pictures, it was fun. Later in the day Deanna, Bekah and I went to the Mall. I bought a new colored V-neck shirt, to add to my collection. I don't know why I like them so much. Their plain, but so versitile. Thats a good word, versitile. Anyway, I also bought earrings, and a bag. The bag is a canvas bag, it says "Eco not ego" I think it's really cute. The earrings are in the shape of little safety pins. After the mall Tia Yoohoo droped me off at home because I had to get ready for the party at Pauls. After much deleberatioin, I decided to go and Im really glad I did. It was nice seeing everyone. Dani, Melanie, Alarie, Kelly, Jordan, Kyle, Connor, Johnny, Ryan, Stephen, Dana, Andrew, Bradly, Paul and Carson. I wassn't really loud or anything this time, I guess it's because I've had a lot on my mind, but I guess I liked it better that way. I talked to Connor, Kyle and Jordan most of the time. I miss them, a lot. Even though I hated middle school I think I made some of my best friends while I was there. Everyone looked so different, mostly in a good way. I wish we could do that sort of thing more often, I guess we can, but it still takes time to figure out when everyone is free. Even though it was slightly raining we went outside, that was kind of fun. The boys were skateboarding and going off the ramps and stuff. It was fun to watch. After they were done we went inside and hung out some more. After people started leaving the party died down. The way home was quiet but nice. Now im in my room. Im actually kind of tired. I had a dream the other night, I don't dream much anymore, so it was nice. I'll tell you about that another time though. I'm going to get something to eat, then go to bed. It sounds like a plan to me.